I don't know if I will have the time to write any more letters because I might be too busy trying to participate. So if this does end up being the last letter I just want you to know that I was in a bad place before I started high school and you helped me. Even if you didn't know what I was talking about or know someone who's gone through it, you made me not feel alone. Because I know there are people who say all these things don't happen. And there are people who forget what it's like to be 16 when they turn 17. I know these will all be stories someday. And our pictures will become old photographs. We'll all become somebody's mom or dad. But right now these moments are not stories. This is happening. I am here and I am looking at her. And she is so beautiful. I can see it. This one moment when you know you're not a sad story. You are alive, and you stand up and see the lights on the buildings and everything that makes you wonder. And you're listening to that song and that drive with the people you love most in this world. And in this moment I swear, we are infinite.
The Perks of Being a Wallflower
I sang, laughed and cried during this movie over the weekend. It was a gem. I appreciated the cast (Emma Watson, Logan Lerman, Ezra Miller, Paul Rudd), the soundtrack (Smiths, Dexys Midnight Runners, David Bowie, New Order), the story and also the way the movie reminded me of the hope and despair that defined my own teenage years. I cannot recall the last time I felt infinite.