Wednesday, February 22, 2017


after the fullness of last weekend, i was looking forward to a low key few days.
i wanted time to read, workout, cook and spend time with my family.

1. i finished a little life. this is a book i will not soon forget. although i went to the library to pick up a new stash, i was unable to pick up another book all weekend long.

2. camouflaged cats. they are in that seasonal mode of following the sun.

3. teddy completed his behind the wheel and will be taking his driving test next week. he's quite a good driver and a pretty responsible young man so i think i'm ready. i won't miss having to pick him up from work at 9 o'clock, which was the case both friday and saturday night, but then maybe i will because some of the best talks we have are when he's shotgun beside me.

4. happy hour at casa wags. the windows were open wide, the music on loud and the grill fired up. lily painted, mike and i played cards and all was right in the universe.

5. just call her shopping queen. saturday she went to the third ward with a friend and monday she went to the mall with grandma. she was on a mission to get sunglasses for mexico. i think she's ready.

6. her nest.

7.  after a long walk through the park with my husband on a summer-like day, we enjoyed his best bbq ribs yet...ever. 

8. grandma judy brought me flowers and a book when she came to take lily shopping and for lunch. she's a keeper...that's for sure.

9. a roaring fire on a fall-like night. 

Friday, February 17, 2017

Grateful Friday

Today I give thanks for...

It's Friday. It's been a long week and a long day too. This morning I picked up my book. The book I'm trying so hard not to finish, and I read while I was drying my hair with one hand and brushing my cat with the other. Oh, and I sobbed. (Good thing it was before I put on any make up.) I was not very present in real life as I pretty much threw our breakfast against the cabinets and stood watching the runny eggs and slimy spinach slink all the way to the floor. Then a few minutes later I mistook toothpaste for lotion and my perfume for deodorant. Ouch!

Lily's glowing conferences last night. A couple teachers were so gushing in their loud praises that I got a tad embarrassed, but, of course, I know they're sincere...and right. She works hard and has much respect for learning and teachers.

Ted has not spoken of quitting his job again this week, and he received his first pay check. I'm hopeful there will be more. School comes first and his social life is important too, but so are the lessons one learns from employment. I think this experience is a source of pride for him, and the small sacrifices he must make are good for maturity and character.

Sore arms. I'm thankful because the pain is from a couple difficult workouts. They hurt so good.

A very sweet Valentines Day with my loves. I'm so lucky.

My guy is going to make his family famous ribs for us this weekend. 

It's going to be unseasonably warm so perfect for grilling.

Spring cleaning. I'm in the mood to purge and organize and tackle some projects.

A long weekend. No work or school on Monday.

Wednesday, February 15, 2017

February Fifteenth

We celebrated Valentine's Day yesterday. It was a good day. Lots of sweets and love. I made the kids waffles with strawberries and cream and chocolate for breakfast, tucked extra large chocolate bars in their lunches to share with friends and made a French silk pie for dessert. I sent my guy off for the day with a found dose of cold meds. He's acquired the infection Lily and I have been battling for weeks now, yet I don't think he blames us...for getting him sick or taking almost all the drugs. He came home with pizzas for the kiddos although not Rocky's as is tradition because they had a 3 hour wait. Apparently, heart-shaped pizzas are a popular tradition. And yes, pizzas because they have divergent requests and we aim to please especially on Valentine's Day. He also brought a nice bottle of vino. I made us small salads so we could have a little pie. Never mind that they were small Caesar salads for today is a new day. And I have only had one bite of pie so far this morning. If you could taste this pie, you would understand instantly the willpower I am exerting. The kids liked their gifts. Lily was most jazzed about her sparkly glue in a rainbow of colors. Sparkly glue means slime. She's quite the slime master these days. Ted showed high excitement over some Vineyard Vines attire for Mexico, which he pronounces vine (long I) yard, much to my amusement. He likes colorful things too. The adults were happy with their gifts as well, but then we know best of all that the stuff is not what's important. They, for the most part, know it too.


What's important are traditions and connections and memories. Support, validation and dreams. Kind deeds, generous acts, thoughtful words, and open hearts. And love. Not just on February 14th, but every day. Always. 365 people.


I've been in a bit of a shady place, and yet, I still know and believe this.  And despite the fact I've been wallowing a bit, I am not joking when I tell you that my heart is filled with just as much if not more gratitude than when I'm soaring. Attention to the extraordinary ordinary and appreciation for the dailiness of life is profound and powerful stuff friends. I aim not to live large. I aim to live lots.


The best of life is what happens in the moments in between. In the trenches is where there are riches.

Tuesday, February 14, 2017


it was a weekend of dates.
thursday evening i attended the highly acclaimed disgraced. 
perhaps, a little too highly acclaimed, and yet i enjoyed the night out with a friend fully.
the characters felt flat, inauthentic and the plot contrived, but the company shined.
friday i had another date for another performance.
jess came over beforehand to help doll lily up for her valentine's dance.
she's beautiful every day, but i think she really felt it this night.
jess did her nails, her hair, her face, and saved my skin.
then we headed to the pabst to see the empress of soul, gladys knight.
we were an hour early so we used our time wisely to people watch and drink wine.
it was quite a crowd and a great show.
the highlights for me were some of the covers she sang like stay with me, and of course, midnight train to georgia.
jess liked landlord (wink wink).
after the show, we walked to elsa's for a snack and to see the collection of neon hearts.
we came home to find that lily won the grand door prize: a giant teddy bear...just what she needed.
and also that teddy had fun at work...yes, fun.
of course, within 24 hours he was talking about quitting his job.
oye ve.
saturday i was rather tired and lazy so i spent the day relaxing, reading, and catching up on a few shows.
we picked teddy up after work at 8:30 and headed out for a late family dinner.
it was a supreme evening despite the fact that the pizza napoletana was not quite as good as we recalled from our last visit.
sunday we had another family date at church, and it was, perhaps, the best of the weekend.
then lily and i headed to the oriental to see the much anticipated film, the lion.
it was the most moving movie i've seen in years.
i loved it so much that i came home and ordered long way home stat.
i'm hopeful it'll be a worthy successor to a little life which i am still pacing my way through.
i have but 100 skinny pages left.
mike grilled burgers for dinner at teddy's request.
we all enjoyed them though.
we all enjoyed it all as a matter of fact.

Monday, February 13, 2017

On My Mind Monday

Having children has provided their adulthood with an instant and nonnegotiable sense of purpose and direction: they decide the length and location of that year's vacation; they determine if there will be any leftover money, and if so, how it might be spent; they give shape to a day, a week, a year, a life. Children are a kind of cartography, and all one has to do is obey the map they present to you on the day they are born.

Hanya Yanagihara
A Little Life

Friday, February 10, 2017

Grateful Friday

In pictures...

Peek a boo Tigger.

Sweet dreams Peanut.

My shadow.

More slime.

 No more braces.

 Another sunrise.

My little life.

Wednesday, February 8, 2017


the weekend was punctuated by equal parts sun and shade both literally and figuratively.
i know it didn't help that neither lily or i were feeling 100 percent.
but the truth is i cannot put it all off on physical ailments.
and really they pale in comparison to emotional upsets.
friday mike and i watched the light between oceans and both liked it lots.
it actually exceeded my expectations and was a rare case of appreciating the movie more than the book.
ted was busy much of the weekend with 2 shifts at work, an afternoon of volunteering and then hanging out with friends in his spare time.
lily spent time with friends at theaters and malls.
typical teen and tween life.
well, he's the only one of his friends who has a job, but i digress.
saturday we had dinner with some family.
it wasn't the best night.
i got stuck on some passing comments.
i left feeling sad.
i woke even sadder.
i really needed church on sunday morning, but my cough was relentless and so mike and i walked all around the city while lily attended sunday school instead.
it was cold and gray and punishing, and exactly what i needed.
then jess came for the super bowl baring spring flowers and red wine,
but she really came for dinner because we didn't much care for the game or the commercials.
in fact, i dozed through most of it.
i attribute my sleepiness to a combo of cold head and food coma (and wine).
mike grilled the most delicious ribs for dinner, and i made coleslaw and parker house potatoes.
it was a feast.
i'm feeling a little better both emotionally and physically with each passing day.