Monday, July 27, 2020

On My Mind Monday


The past was what we carried with us, threaded to the future, and we decided whether to keep it close or let it go. Fate was both what we were given and what we made for ourselves.

Alice Hoffman
The Museum of Extraordinary Things 

The long set-up was worth it. The Museum of Extraordinary Things 
delivered a cast of rich, dynamic characters and forever compelling messages of acceptance and forgiveness. It's been a long time since I finished the last page and felt quenched by the ending. I'll definitely be reading more Hoffman.

Friday, July 24, 2020

Grateful Friday

Today I give thanks for...

Lily is feeling good despite her diagnosis. 



It's been a beautiful stretch of days. She's been hanging out in her hammock in the yard. 

An open house. Fresh air. 

Movie nights. We've been watching a movie every night after dinner. Nothing really worth mentioning here.

Moonlight walks. Last night after the movie, Lily and I went for a walk around the neighborhood. It was cool enough to wear a pullover. We had the streets to ourselves. She asked why we don't do this more often. I said we should. We will.

Lots of late afternoon walks too.

Kitchen inspiration. I found a little this week. Yesterday I made a Chinese Chicken Salad for lunch. It was super easy and fresh. I cheated and used rotisserie chicken and a bag of slaw mix. I didn't have sriracha, so I substituted chili paste. It is a make again.


Today I slept in and made brunch.


I'm reading again. I'm halfway through The Museum of Extraordinary Things. The set-up is a little too long for my liking and current attention span. What's keeping me going are the other books in my growing stack.


Surprises. Yesterday the twins Lily is close to turned 16. One of them has Covid. They are in the same QT place we are. We Door Dashed blizzards to the family to cheer them up. It cheered us up too.

Kindness. Candace dropped off a Covid care package the other day. Fresh bread, cinnamon buns, wine and spirits lifted ours. Yesterday a neighbor delivered a batch of freshly baked brownies. We're all about eating our feelings right now.


Black Eyed Susans.


Sunset.


Showy skies.


Our resident greeter.


My side kick.


And snuggle bug.



Wednesday, July 22, 2020

Full Disclosure

Lily tested positive for the virus. It was just a matter of time. We received word on Sunday night. The rest of us are negative. I'm still convinced that Ted and I had it in February before it was even a thing here. We are all quarantining as instructed. Lily is isolating. She feels good. Pretty sad. A little bored. I feel the same. Ted is in QT at Windmill Beach to ensure that he can go back to work and life next week. He's there solo and equal parts loving it and missing his activities and peeps. It's like he's on a retreat. He's running on the beach, cooling off in the lake and impressing us with his culinary acumen. I sent him to exile with a big bag and a cooler filled with groceries. Last night he learned how to use the grill. He made himself hamburgers and sent a pretty picture with the watercolor sky as his background. I am certain that he will be able to take good care of himself when he moves into his apartment.

That can happen in a few weeks. I have such mixed feelings about what we were all once so excited for. It seems somewhat silly to spend all this money for a stunted education and a scrubbed college experience. And yes, I realize that these are first world problems and that we are all facing sacrifices and challenges, but it doesn't change the fact that this sucks royally for all of us in a million different ways. 

It was a struggle to show empathy to my daughter when she lost it over not being able to get her driver's license by her birthday next month. She's looking at September now, but to her that seems like forever. I dug deep and remembered how excited I was to get my license. It helped. She's okay now. She rebounded and quickly adopted the it is what it is attitude. It's just one of the reasons I love this girl beyond words.

She's still sleeping. There's no reason to wake her. This feels like a lost 10 days in a lost year. I definitely need to get out of the house for a walk. Fresh air and sunshine almost always ensure an attitude adjustment. And yes, I am allowed to leave the house for a walk.

Sunday, July 19, 2020

Just Breathe

So yesterday ended up being a good day. Certainly much better than the day before. I purged emotional and physical toxins during a sweaty workout and then I promised a visit to the beach. It was a 90 degree day and we are in QT so our options are limited. Although, Windmill Beach is always a good option. I tried to weenie out, but Mike and Lils were not letting me off the hook. I'm grateful they didn't. We had the beach to ourselves. The water was just a little cooler than a couple weeks ago and wavy. Mike didn't think I'd be able to get in, but I actually was in faster than last time. It was another purge. The surf was bracing and the under tow strong. The thunder was almost inaudible over the sound of the surf and then we saw lightning so we headed in for a game of cards. Lils won.

We came home, took hot showers and ordered takeout from a little Italian place. It was delicious. The movie was so bad I almost went up to bed in the last few minutes, but all in all it was a good day. 

Before I turned in for the night, I received information that Ted's co-worker tested negative. This is the person who we were told was positive and the reason he needed to be tested. Then I found out that Lily's friend who was positive was also negative. I'm just so frustrated with all the misinformation. I feel like we are engaging in a game of telephone. I'm not sure where the breakdown is occurring. And now my neighbor, who according to the message his wife posted on line yesterday is positive and symptomatic with serious co-morbidity,  just walked by my house sans mask for his daily 3 miles. I'm telling you I cannot make this up! Btw she posted that to school other people about taking this seriously. This is why I always ask why? This is why I question motivation, end games, and literally everything. We keep hearing that we have to follow the science, but the science is interpreted and reported by people who have biases and agendas often beyond public health and safety.

I didn't come here to rant this morning, but when I saw my neighbor looking healthy as a horse, I lost it. And for the record, I'm grateful that he is, but either his wife, who happens to be on the school board, is lying or he is endangering the community.

Back to the beach. Breathe.


Just Breathe. 

To the beach.

 Water is wavy and almost warm.

Into the water.



Out of the water.

Summer squall.

Storm watching.

Saturday, July 18, 2020

Here We Go

I had the day off yesterday and a fun weekend planned. Best laid plans. We ended up in a long line waiting for Covid tests. Lily was in contact with someone who tested positive at a small, mask-less gathering. As of this morning, I know of a couple more cases. The good thing is that I don't know of anyone who is symptomatic. She had to call in to work and softball practice. She had shifts today and yesterday and a double header on Monday. She's right bummed.

Ted needed a test too. A co-worker in his small office tested positive. Ted hasn't been in contact with him in 2 weeks, but they are being ultra conservative. It's their right to CYA, but it's frustrating because there's no consistency.

It was overwhelming to digest. Where do we go for tests? Who needs tests? How long before we get results? Who do we need to notify? There is so much conflicting information, misinformation, hype. We made phone calls and got on the Internet. I called my doctor. They won't test unless you are presenting with at least 2 symptoms. The kids could get in at their pediatricians, but not until the very end of day and that felt like a waste of a day. This clinic wouldn't test under 18 and that one was full. 

We decided to go to a testing site at a local high school run by the National Guard. We pulled up to a line just before opening that snaked through the neighborhood at least 100 cars. We only waited for a little over an hour. The actual test took seconds and was yes, unpleasant, but not awful. They said we should have results in 3-7 days, but even as soon as 2. I was impressed by the staff, the whole experience.

The rest of the day was a wash. I felt low. No symptoms, lots of anxiety. Angst because I just don't see how we move forward. The minute we start opening up more, the cases surge. I, for one, don't think it's a particularly scary thing for these healthy kids, but I know they come in contact with people at greater risk for serious illness. Sometimes I think we have this all backwards. Shutting down was done to flatten the curve, not eradicate the virus. Every time there's an uptick, we cannot hit pause. I think it makes sense for those who are vulnerable to isolate. I know that's not the way everyone thinks. Believe me I know. On our high school parent's site, people are picking fights, judging, bullying. I am waiting for the cooler heads to prevail and also for the collective wisdom to lead the charge. I'm tired of hearing rumors that this person tested positive, and half truths that school is on or off. The majority of these kids are going to get it. There should not be a stigma. They're waiting until the last minute to make a decision about the plan for fall. We're all trying to do the best for the greater good with the information we have and based on our individual beliefs. 

Friday, July 17, 2020

Grateful Friday

Today I give thanks for...

Dinner with Jess last Friday. We finally were able to celebrate her birthday. It was a lovely night to enjoy the patio, steaks on the grill, a nice bottle of red. I made her favorite chocolate mousse. She came with a box full of decadent desserts. We indulged.

I connected with my uncle this week. Usually we'd be planning a road trip to visit the Michigan relatives, but not this year.

Mike received word that his job is not in jeopardy.

Mike. He installed our ceiling fan last week and I cannot believe we waited 15 years to do so. It is so lovely. Mike also did our taxes. We filed on the 15th. A little close for comfort for me, but I have no interest in doing them myself. And he made us a delicious Chinese chicken with vegetables dish for dinner one night last week.





$5 fresh bouquets on Friday.


This girl. She's on the edge of 16. Sweet 16. I am so excited for the birthday gifts I have for her this year. I put a lot of thought into making her day special. I'm getting off easy. Our plan was Hawaii for this milestone, but that's not happening right now. 


I have 15 smaller gifts and then one piece of keepsake jewelry. I'm putting together a photo book of her life and going through all the old pictures has been such a trip down memory lane.

When they play Gin together before dinner.


 Birds in the bird bath. Tigger takes birdie patrol seriously.


Netflix. Last night Mike and I watched the Squid and the Whale. It was a quality film from 2005 that neither of us had ever seen. See it.

Fridays off.