All year I have been keeping time by last year's calendar.
Joan Didion
The Year of Magical Thinking
I know what this is like. It's been almost 5 years and I can say that while I move forward (like I have a choice), I am always looking back. Miss Bit will turn 9 next month. My Mom died shortly after her 4th birthday. It boggles my mind and hurts my heart that she has now lived more years without her nanny than she lived with her. Ouch. There's no bandaid big enough for that wound.
